California is like a bowl of cereal...

...full of nuts, fruits, and flakes. Someone told me that a dozen years ago when I moved to California and over the years I have seen that it is true to the extent that any gross generalization is true. I don't really mind the nuts and I'm not sure who the fruits are but it is the flakes that have been bothering me lately. People in California are flaky, I've know that for a very long time and most of time I just keep on rolling. To East coast folks, Californians are fake, too nice, and they just don't suffer enough in that yankee way. To Midwesterners, Californians are Weird, they eat strange things, live in a climate that is nice but boring, and spend waay too much for houses. True enough, but what really gets me is that everyone is so fucking unreliable! It has worked to my advantage in the past: just showing up for work means you are in the top 10% of employees. People here don't even quit a job, they just stop SHOWING UP to work and eventually the employer mails them their last check. So if just showing up to work is half the battle, if you actually do your work you are employee of the month.

Even outside of the work relationship reliability is optional. We've been selling some things on craigslist and so far more than four people have NOT SHOWN UP after telling us they want the item and gotten directions to our house And told us when they will be there. Seriously, what the hell? This is annoying but I don't take it personally. If you don't want to buy my crap, I understand, no biggie.

But, when it comes to forming new friendships or maintaining fledgling ones, unrealiability is "totally uncool". I do take it personally when I have people cancel last minute, not follow through, or never call. I can't help it I'm sensitive. So, what to do? Well I have joined a new group of moms, they meet every week and do things both with kids and without, sounds great. First meet up since I joined is tomorrow. Two yeses, four maybees, and six nos. So, today when I go to RSVP I find that one of the organizers has posed the following question: "If the maybe's want to update, maybe you can still "meet-up" if Lily and I aren't there???" Yep that's the organizer and the co-organizer. Now there are no yeses and only four maybes (including mine). What am I supposed to take from this?

Lack

I am tired

all the time

of everything

especially myself